What a week....

Oh my goodness...i don't even know where to start....this has been a horrible week. I figured that I will write a least once a week instead of everyday. It all started at work Monday morning..I work so hard at my job and I feel so overworked and underpaid. But its crazy because regardless of everything I still love my job. At work sometimes I feel that even though I might not do something wrong I still get blamed for it. And at times if something is not done right I have to go back and do someone else's work just to ensure that that it doesn't come back and bite me in the butt. I don't know if that is what you call being nice or what but I do know that I am over working myself. Not to mention all week I have had the worst toothache ever. ..and you know that when your tooth hurts everything thing else bothers you...its not so much a physical job as it is a mental job...having a job like that is so draining...but than to come home and cook and clean and by the time I get to do anything its time for bed....just to get up in a few hours to start it all over.....and than come the weekend I still cant just lay around and rest...well last weekend I was sick with the Flu but every other time...I have to go grocery shopping or have to clean or other personal reasons...I try every Saturday to clean the whole house...but i know that I put it all on myself too because I feel like if I don't do it, it wont get done or wont get done right and I am very picking about certain things....The saying that people say "A women's job is never done" they are so right...

So this is the next thing...when you have roommates that is a tough situation....I have my brother living with me and my boyfriend and all I asked my brother to do is pay the electric. Just like people say never work with family...living with them can be the same....he wants to complain about how much food we have or how he never has money...no one told him that it would be easy living on his own...if that is the case than he needs to go back to mom and dad's because I am stressed about bills too....I wish that I could stay somewhere and all I had to do was pay for the electric. He doesn't have to worry about the rent or the water getting shut off. That is something that I have to think about everyday...I am the one that has to manage my money right so we do have a place to live and food to eat...He wants to talk about working and never having money??? How about working for 40 plus hours a week and never having money....You see I am not one to complain because I am just happy being on my own....I am ok with eating ramon noodles for dinner if I have to. Just as long as I have my own place....but you see I have no car and my brother does....so we share his car...and thank God that he is considerate enough to let me use it...I have no car but he lets me use his car to go to work and if he didn't I would be screwed....so the next question is do i get mad for him complaining???
But what can I say he is my baby brother and I love him with all my heart...

Life can get so stressful....and I realized that if you don't have people there to support you than it cant get any better....It is so amazing sometimes how you can have the worst day ever and someone will just send you a little text or email you a little something and it makes the whole day better...or it can be the other way around...you can be having a great day and someone can say one thing and change everything...and you know what it usually is someone close to you....

I dont ask for much from anybody...I just want to live my life and be happy....but in trying to do that people always have something negative to say about me....whether its how I look or what I might be wearing, what I might say or do, or how I feel about something...I guess that is what makes the world go round...but what I dont understand what does it matter to them??? Why must people talk about other people??? Is it because they have nothing better to do??? Is my life and what I do that important to others??? Hey if they have nothing better to do than sit around and talk about me than I guess I am that important...I think that people tend to look at other people's lives because they are too scared to face thier own problems or they dont want to realize that they have issues of their own....


Wow it is amazing how much better I feel!!! Maybe this thing does work...I dont want to just write about the bad stuff in my life because I promise there is alot of good but I needed a stress reliever and this was the first place I thought to come to....