So how do I begin this?? I never blogged before...The question I ask is what do I say? What do I want to share with the outside world? I am very private person when it comes to my life. I don't like many people to know what goes on, but I have come to realize that when you say whats on your mind you are less likely to go crazy. I am hoping in doing this that I might be able to relieve some tension that I might have. So this is the beginning...So where do I start?? I guess the beginning, right? Yeah, that already sounded so original.
Well, I can sit here and write a novel and write my own Biography but I dont dare bore you. I am sure that I will cover my life story in time. But for right now I will just start off with just the basic. I am just going to take this day by day and see where it leads me.
As of now, I am working as a nurse at a Pediatrician's office. I am loving it! I could not ask for a better job. My family is all in good health and thank God everyday for that and thank Him for giving me another day to live.
I am in a relationship with a man (of course) now for about 2 yrs. I love him and hope it can go the distance. I am 23 and this is my second relationship. Some might say that I am crazy for not dating other people but what do they know. Most of them have been divorced multiple times or are in very unhappy marriages now. The first relationship that I was in with didnt work out very good. Which the previous relationship is a whole other story in its self which I am sure that will come out in one of these blogs. I am betting "all in" on this relationship so wish me luck.
I was raised in a Pentecostal church. Not only that but also went to the school that the church had. I dont know if that is what you would call sheltered or not. But I am sure that it has saved me from getting in alot of trouble. I guess you can say that I have strayed from the straight and narrow and I fight with myself on a daily basis about that. I think that is probably one of my biggest problems right now. But that story as well will be saved for another day.
The main thing that I am wanting to do in my life is have some kind of hobby. I would love to start taking kickboxing classes. I have heard that also is a stress reliever. I have so much built up aggression it's so very scary. I watch UFC and when I do it gets me so excited. Now I think for a girl, is that really a good thing?? I can sometimes imagaine myself in that cage fighting somebody. I mean I have actually dreamed about fighting in the UFC. Is that sick or twisted?? or is it natural?? Who knows... But I will definitely let you know if my dream ever does come true.
Now as I am writing, I am thinking is there any right or wrong to writing a blog? Now I am thinking about what will other people have to say when they read this. That is another issue of mine. I worry so much about what other people may think that I forget all about myself. And I must say that I have realized in my few years of adulthood that no matter how nice you may try to be there will always be haters. There wiil always be someone who will not be happy. I am done with that someone being me. I am tired of trying to please people. For what? I want to be happy and live my life to the fullest. AAGGHH!!! That is such a sore subject for me. Whenever I start talking about it the inner Hulk wants to come out.
Well, I guess that's it for now. I can ramble all night but tomorrow is another day. Goodnight to all....
P.S. I hope that this is as theraputic as everyone says it is
